In My Feelings.

So, i'm currently "mad" about a few things.

1. I reaaally wanted this simple, J5 Shirt from 80spurple.com, but those bitches seemed to take it off the market so fast. *sigh* And my mother just loves to wait til the last minute to do everything. I guess loafing is her thang. I just liked the feeling thinking about people saying "GIRL WHERE YOU GETCHO SHIRT FROM?!?!?!" And me replying "THE INTERNET." Or something dumb like that...It makes me feel good, I guess it gives me a sense of securty? I hope that's a good thing...I just like thee attention. So that makes make me an attention whore. *Woo* Ehh..Don't get me wrong though. I know I was acting like a spoiled brat. I wanted to cry when I saw that it was gone because I was so mad. I guess I'm over that whole scenario now arguing with my mom via text. It's ridiculous..

2. I hate hate hate summer. I like the fact that there's no homework and all that blah blah blahh. But after going to several parties, getting high, staying up late and being out til 3 in the morning, it get's old fast for me. I like adventure. And I never get to experience that when the time comes. I always have to go somewhere with an adult, So now I don't even bother to leave the house, or at least attempt to. It pisses me off that I have no freedom. Whenever that time comes, I just let loose. I don't like when people are too uptight, and when it's time to take risks they just love hesitating, making excuses, and being pessimistic. I'm an optimist, as you can see..and I always try to find the good in things, unless I'm totally against it or whatever...

3. I've been pms-ing for the past 2 weeks. And I've been craving every single food that I just can't seem to get my hands on...OHMYGAWD it effing sucks too. Not going into details! But being 'bitchy' actually gives me time to think and be alone, which makes me feel better.

4. Paranoia has been striking me for the last month ever since something or "someone" made my phone "throw itself" across my bedroom from my dresser hitting my closet door...

5. I seriously forgot what I was going to put here. That's been happening a lot to me lately. I can't even think of what words to say for the next joint. I'm seriously about to go crazy about that.

6. But I'll attempt it.......I've been having "brain farts", or whatever you call it, lately. This is another thing as to why I dislike summer. No education whatsoever, for me.

But until then, I'll TRY to enjoy myself. I probably won't though. =(

...The weather is nice today, and I'm sure that I'll be inside in this very spot all day.