Let's play dress-up. =)

I’m quite sure that if I was famous I would constantly be viewed as best dressed. Not just because I think I’m dumbfly, but because lets be honest … most famous people look ridiculous. I can’t be the only person who thinks this..


EXAMPLE:
Celebs can wear dresses made of shredded garbage bags with cotton balls and googley eyes and ostrich feathers super glued to it, and as long as it has a Versace tag, then it’ll be exquisite.

Yayy!?

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears that I’ve gotAnd just let them out
But I’m not afraid to cry
Every once in a while
Even though going on with you still upsets me
Ever days
Every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say And watching you walk away
And never knowing what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do..



Oh why do i listen to songs like this? Too bad I couldn't find the whole song to put in my playlist.......
hmm... i have NO clue....I think I'm gonna go watch a movie....or just wach Bernie Mac Show..

life has been a crazy roller coster lately...with school starting and all that..boys..DRAMA. smh.

speaking of roller costers...

I want to go to an amusement park... OR GO ANYWHERE FOR GOD'S SAKE..I haven't been out half the summer.... hmmm...

Ok, let's just get to the point..
Does anyone else hate it when you just feel so alone?.. like, no one would go out of their way for you... just give you a random call.. or come and see you... or say hi... and the only people that would, have all left you for the time being.... or forever...

What's even worse.. is thinking someone cares.... to find out that they dont...and it just doesn't seem to fathom them... I hate pretending.... and just smiling.. with so much under the surface unsaid....I like helping people... and I like acting like I'm strong.... but im not 65% of the time.... or at least not as strong as i act sometimes...........i wish someone would come to my rescue.... *SIGH*
...fairy tales....

ohhh.. I hate this... life is full of its ups and downs...but we gotta learn to deal with it one way or another...if it wasn't, life would probably be so perfect and bland.

life is one large tapestry... have you ever seen the back of a rug or something embroidered? .... well.. it looks like one big jumbled mess... and it doesn't look like a picture at all....
But only God can see that picture... and one day we will understand our exact meaning for being here... and we will see the picture "he" is painting... and then is when the front of that tapestry will be revealed to us... but for now we just have to trust that it is beautiful and amazing..... and trust in him....easier said than done... I know! it's always that way... but it is worth it...

hmmm.. does that make any since?? I surely hope it does.
...red roses... or orchids??? But, roses are my birth flower, ahh o well.
yay for long entries... ??
-RAEYA.

In My Feelings.

So, i'm currently "mad" about a few things.

1. I reaaally wanted this simple, J5 Shirt from 80spurple.com, but those bitches seemed to take it off the market so fast. *sigh* And my mother just loves to wait til the last minute to do everything. I guess loafing is her thang. I just liked the feeling thinking about people saying "GIRL WHERE YOU GETCHO SHIRT FROM?!?!?!" And me replying "THE INTERNET." Or something dumb like that...It makes me feel good, I guess it gives me a sense of securty? I hope that's a good thing...I just like thee attention. So that makes make me an attention whore. *Woo* Ehh..Don't get me wrong though. I know I was acting like a spoiled brat. I wanted to cry when I saw that it was gone because I was so mad. I guess I'm over that whole scenario now arguing with my mom via text. It's ridiculous..

2. I hate hate hate summer. I like the fact that there's no homework and all that blah blah blahh. But after going to several parties, getting high, staying up late and being out til 3 in the morning, it get's old fast for me. I like adventure. And I never get to experience that when the time comes. I always have to go somewhere with an adult, So now I don't even bother to leave the house, or at least attempt to. It pisses me off that I have no freedom. Whenever that time comes, I just let loose. I don't like when people are too uptight, and when it's time to take risks they just love hesitating, making excuses, and being pessimistic. I'm an optimist, as you can see..and I always try to find the good in things, unless I'm totally against it or whatever...

3. I've been pms-ing for the past 2 weeks. And I've been craving every single food that I just can't seem to get my hands on...OHMYGAWD it effing sucks too. Not going into details! But being 'bitchy' actually gives me time to think and be alone, which makes me feel better.

4. Paranoia has been striking me for the last month ever since something or "someone" made my phone "throw itself" across my bedroom from my dresser hitting my closet door...

5. I seriously forgot what I was going to put here. That's been happening a lot to me lately. I can't even think of what words to say for the next joint. I'm seriously about to go crazy about that.

6. But I'll attempt it.......I've been having "brain farts", or whatever you call it, lately. This is another thing as to why I dislike summer. No education whatsoever, for me.

But until then, I'll TRY to enjoy myself. I probably won't though. =(

...The weather is nice today, and I'm sure that I'll be inside in this very spot all day.

Sixth Sense.

This is pretty cool, actually.
It's from this site, www.gURL.com. I'm like, addicted to it.

I took the "what's your sixth sense?" quiz on gURL.com
		my sixth sense is clairaudio Sound is your sixth sense. You're probably not surprised since you might be found rockin' a pair of headphones at anytime. So how does this relate to your inner voice? Read more... What's your sixth sense?

-Raeya.