I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears that I’ve gotAnd just let them out
But I’m not afraid to cry
Every once in a while
Even though going on with you still upsets me
Ever days
Every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say And watching you walk away
And never knowing what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do..
Oh why do i listen to songs like this? Too bad I couldn't find the whole song to put in my playlist.......
hmm... i have
NO clue....I think I'm gonna go watch a movie....or just wach Bernie Mac Show..
life has been a crazy roller coster lately...with school starting and all that..boys..DRAMA.
smh. speaking of roller costers...
I want to go to an amusement park... OR GO ANYWHERE FOR GOD'S SAKE..I haven't been out half the summer.... hmmm...
Ok, let's just get to the point..
Does anyone else hate it when you just feel so alone?.. like, no one would go out of their way for you... just give you a
random call.. or come and see you... or say hi... and the only people that would, have all left you for the time being.... or forever...
What's even worse.. is thinking someone cares.... to find out that they dont...and it just doesn't seem to fathom them... I hate pretending.... and just smiling.. with so much under the surface unsaid....I like helping people... and I like acting like I'm strong.... but im not 65% of the time.... or at least not as strong as i act sometimes...........i wish someone would come to my rescue.... *SIGH*
...fairy tales....
ohhh.. I hate this... life is full of its ups and downs...
but we gotta learn to deal with it one way or another...if it wasn't, life would probably be so perfect and bland.
life is one large tapestry... have you ever seen the back of a rug or something embroidered? .... well.. it looks like one big jumbled mess... and it doesn't look like a picture at all....
But only
God can see that picture... and
one day we will understand our exact meaning for being here... and we will see the picture "he" is painting... and then is when the front of that tapestry will be revealed to us... but for now we just have to trust that it is beautiful and amazing..... and trust in him....easier said than done... I know! it's always that way... but it is worth it...
hmmm.. does that make any since?? I surely hope it does.
...red roses... or orchids??? But, roses are my birth flower, ahh o well.
yay for long entries... ??-RAEYA.